me right now ok?

:(:

Is it good that I'm always putting on a happy face just to make sure the people around me have it easy? I'm a crowd-pleaser and I can be a pushover....

Oh, and then there's volleyball. I feel like I'm never doing enough for the team. There are also people I want to just throw a ball at and say "Wake up, we're actually playing volleyball; maybe if you listen to our instructions and 'tips' you could improve and stop beating yourself up. Accept stuff too. God."

Ah what place am I in to say that though, I'm not even good lol.

And then there are people on the team whom I look at as people I want to improve to be: Fiona, Sofea. I've got a long way to go but I guess I'll keep going.

Bye.

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October Break is nearing! But first, I have to go through so much stuff.
- Math test
- Newsdesk for journalism
- PSAT
- Feature Article
- Writing another article

Oh lord, don't even get me started on holiday homework. I know, I know, I'm only a sophomore but I don't know what to do with myself anymore! I'm always stressing myself out more than I should, I'm always putting myself through a lot when I don't need to. Always trying to overcome myself, go beyond the barriers. When I am able to go beyond the barriers, the rewarding feeling is out of this world though. I just gotta work harder I guess. But how much harder? I don't know.

- over 150 pages to read for English.
- Business report

Let's watch this list build up.

Thank goodness Science will be fun tomorrow!!!!!!!!!

Slender is one game you do not want to screw around with.

Rules

1. Don't play it with the lights on.
2. You SHOULD play it with at least one other person.
3. Headphones/earphones are preferred.
4. Don't stop walking in the game.

It gets less scary the more you play it though.

I don't know, I think so, I don't want to, but if things are positive, it would be so good, but I don't know, too good for me, I think so, I want to but I don't want to and I don't know but I would rather not but I do. But I don't want to.

WHAT DO I DO?

rhetorical.

Time?

Been back on the Big Bang Theory bandwagon lately; I've mostly been recapping and rewatching all these episodes randomly. Gotta love the Wallowitz. Castle Season 5 is out, the Big Bang Theory 6, New Girl 2. Sigh, I just wish I had the time to watch them let alone download/stream these episodes. It's either I do this during the fall break to fill up my time OR I wait until the end of the seasons to download them. I would most probably watch them and catch-up with them during fall break but I'd have holiday assignments to complete.

Just trying to fill this blog up and keep myself updating so I never lose the motivation to. If I had the don't break the chain thing by Seinfeld was it? I don't know, but if I had it going on right now, it would be a complete disaster. Go look it up though if you have time and have excellent time management skills and basically if you're not me. Which you aren't. So go look it up.

It's pretty interesting. One of the very few people I know that use it is Charlie McDonnell on YouTube and it seems to be working really well for him.

I could only dream of achieving that amount of productivity and dedication. Oh well.

I actually don't know what to post about since I have so much going on it's insane but here I am procrastinating and posting. IDK WHAT TO DO I JUST HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK.

Thank god fall break's around the corner though I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this holiday coming up.